This hug was so different than any other they had shared prior
typically, in the past, one or the other would initiate - and sometimes both would go in simultaneously - but always they would reciprocate and typically meet half way at the least.
But here - two things happen
Kurt steps in awkwardly in trying to determine how to approach this desperately needed moment of physical intimacy. He must convey through touch what he can’t find in words right now.
Blaine has changed - but so has he. Although they have been aware of one another - they have not tended to each others needs. Kurt’s guilt drives him into this hug seeking his own forgiveness.
Blaine didn’t respond or reciprocate initially
Still afraid and unsure
He waited for Kurt to wrap his arms around him and pull him into his chest
He heard what Kurt had said - and he knew in his heart it was truthful and honest
But he has a doubt that had clearly been eating him up and letting go of it that quickly just didn’t happen
Kurt didn’t just wrap his arms around Blaine in a “I am here to sooth you way” or to show domination in Blaine’s time of weakness.
He knew that this touch needed to convey a lack of judgment and superiority. He knew this had to show equality and bring them back to middle ground.
His left arm went under Blaine’s right and wrapped around his back. As his left went around Blaine’s left shoulder and came around to the right shoulder.
It was that touch and grip to Blaine’s right shoulder that brought up Blaine’s right hand to find Kurt’s back and grip with his fingers.
Immediately following with his left arm and hand which found hold on Kurt’s left shoulder.
Blaine didn’t just return the hug at this point - he grasped onto Kurt. absorbing and accepting all that Kurt was giving him.
Once they settled into the hug - they existed in this moment for just them
Blaine released the tension of his internal battle and buries his face slightly into Kurt’s shoulder and squeezes tighter.
He is only alone if he lets himself be - and he knows he doesn’t have to be - Kurt will always be there.
they breathe together
Each silently recounting the path that brought them here - regret and thankfulness colliding
Blaine drops the wall he had built around himself and lets the emotions go he was working so hard to keep hidden.
The grip lessens as the understanding grows
He no longer holds on out of fear of losing Kurt - but rather holds on to that which will love him unconditionally until he is strong enough to stand on his own again.
A small tear escapes onto his eyelashes and shows the first sign of cleansing the pain, hurt and fear away from his soul
Kurt holds onto that which is more precious and valuable to him than anything else in the world.
In the end it does come down to this - them - it will always be them
They may take turns being the stronger or weaker of the two - but they will never not be equals.
This wasn’t a just a hug
It was reconnecting and affirming of who they are - and what they are to each other.